push| Q&A

I’ve been getting a few repeated questions in my inbox, figured I’d tackle them all at once here! 🙂 I just ate a huge bowl of mac and cheese with salmon (left overs from the dinner I made last night) and I’m headed to go walk and train arms. Still on my weight gain and it feels SO weird trying to gain weight after leaning out for so long. I feel so naughty eating normal food NONSTOP.

I feel like a baby in a strip club.

…anyways. here’s the answers to your questions, please keep sending them! And if I have not responded to your emails yet, please know I am doing my best to respond with my full focus and attention, even if that means taking longer to reply! Have patience with me!


Q: “You said you didn’t place in your competition. How many places were there?”

A: Perfect question, so sorry I neglected to write this in the competition post! Top 5 are the places, and there were 17 girls in my class!

Q: “How many calories do you eat a day?’

A: I wouldn’t know. I don’t count them. In my opinion, counting calories is the second stupidest thing next to fat burning pills.

Q: When is your next competition?

A. November 🙂 I have about 2/3 weeks off, and then I will be training again!

Q: How long should I do cardio every day.

A: In most cases, I would advise not to do cardio EVERY day. This will only keep tearing down muscle and your body will end up looking kind of saggy and odd (like those who only exercise with bike riding/jogging). Stick to slow burn cardio approximately 20-40 minutes every other work out.



If one more person credits my stomach to bulimia, I’m going to throw up on them.

Oh! By the way,


push| I’m going to gain weight.


Good afternoon love bumps. Is your day going well? For those of you who work at desk/office jobs…hang in there! Before I quit my office job(with no warning-i blasted an email to every one letting them know that I was leaving after 3 years of misery, racism, jealousy, hate and the like, and then gave them the deuces walked out 2 minutes later. It was the first time I felt like a baller) I used to feel like death once 2/3 rolled around. Granted, I was not healthy during that time period so it was even harder to stay awake! Hang in there! You’re almost off!!

I’m heading to the gym to change EVERYTHING up for about 3 weeks! I weighed in for competition at 101. It’s only okay to stay at that weight for one day MAXIMUM! Since my burrito on Saturday, I’ve had Denny’s, burgers and steak fries, ice cream, cake, and chips (to name a few things) to gain some weight. My goal is to put on at least 10 lbs in the next 2 weeks. I’ll be doing only 2 hours of cardio a week. And heavier weights.

In saying this, those of you who have read/liked my blog the last couple weeks because I was ‘thin’ (which I prefer not to be called, lean/firm is what my goal is as well as what I believe is the healthy alternative!) you may want to find a new blog or check in during my next competition. I’ll be putting on some healthy weight and giving my body a good break and some cushion!

You all are blowing me away with your Facebook love.



Ciara LE walking at the NPC Bikini!

Good morning sweet things!

D got a video of me walking during the judging! 🙂 Sorry it’s sideways and this little camera that shot the video (which happens to be the ghetto camera that started this blog 🙂 ) is less than wonderful. Turn your head to the left and squint and you should be good!

Okay, so I’ll explain what’s going on a little bit for you too. Since it was such a LARGE class this year, they split 17  girls down the middle to walk up front. There were only 5 winning places so they looked at the 2 groups separately to be able to see all of us. We walk out and waited for the first group on the other side of the stage. Then my half walked out. Then we strut front and back. The judges want to see the front side and back side. That was a change for me as I’ve competed in figure before which entailed posing/flexing and quarter turns.

Also, I just want to let you know that whenever I got a little dose of nervousness back stage waiting, I looked at the comments, emails, tumblr posts/notes and facebook posts from you. You have all increased the joy in my life by millions and millions! It makes me cry when I think of you. I am so blessed by you. You all know who you are.

And to Miss Corrine Labial at FitintheCity, thank you for showing so much love to me. You have told me that you look up to me for motivation, but you, darling, have been a motivation to me since the day I first saw your post. I hope one day soon I can make the trek out to you so we can lift some weights, drink some chai, and dominate some bean burritos.

I thank God for you.

-moment to compose-

I wonder if Tyra would be proud and say I was fierce over and over and over again and then tell me to smile with my eyes. hahahahah, here we go.

ciaraLE.com and the NPC July Arizona Open

Here it is! The lengthy photo journey of my first taste of Bikini at the local show. You may want to scroll to the right, the pictures are quite large!

4:00 am : wake up and attempt to make my face match my body. Very exhausted already at this point!

11:00 am: My height class (Class A) walks out on stage! There were 17 girls total in my class.

After the morning show, we had some time to go eat some lunch. On the way out we snapped a few with the always lovely Felicia Romero! I ate a panini and muffin for the first time in a long time and my belly got kinda poofy for the night show!! 😮 (all judging takes place in the morning show).

6:00 pm The night show! A few of the mobile uploads from behind the stage as well!

9:00 pm : After the results were posted backstage. Didn’t place, but got to give hugs to the devoted beautiful girls who did. It was so wonderful to be around other motivated people who live a life with accepted challenges and follow through! I couldn’t even waste any time to be sad, (most of all I just wanted my burrito 😉 ) but I felt SUCH satisfaction in knowing that I did my absolute best no matter what the judges’ decisions.

me with the handsome Scott Pasmore!

Troy Alves has seen me grow since I was in high school. So nice to still have him around!

My incredible parents

And now…
what we (me) have all been waiting for…..

Uhm…I meant fried ice cream.

I don’t think friend ice cream exists…yet.(stroke of genius)

the food already started shocking my system after the chips and salsa. haha, ps. that’s dad’s hand.

I WAS IN SO MUCH PAIN even my neck was cramping up! It was like all of me was locking up under the shock! IT HURT SO GOOD! haha



Good morning beautiful men and women!!! I hope you all are having such a great weekend and that all that goodness will carry into your Monday!

Before D and I head to a huge wonderful breakfast, I wanted to let you know that I didn’t place this time around, but all the girls I was up against were absolute knock outs! I can’t even begin to be sad, I’ve had such an amazing support group made up of all of you wonderful people.Thank you for making my 1st time in bikini AMAZING! I love you!

I will be posting A LOT of photos from the weekend and photos of me on stage and the girls I was competing against in my height class. I promise it’ll be a long one and I will let you know what went on throughout the weekend, my thoughts  on everything, and basically just..everything 🙂 I know a lot of you girls were excited for me to “scout” it out for you since you’ve been wanting to compete but didn’t know what it all entailed.

Dev also got some awesome footage of me and my BEAN F***ING BURRITO after the show! It was beautiful. I almost passed out from the sodium shock immediately after.

so wonderful.

Here is a quick shot that was taken when me and two girls who were in different height classes than I was, a bit blurry!


Hi love bugs.

Sitting/laying here in the hotel waiting since registration earlier this evening. Been drifting in and out of sleep and am finding it pretty difficult to sit up and concentrate on something longer than 5 minutes. I missed you guys though. And I wanted to write to you because it makes me feel at peace.

I just spoke with my coach and asked how he thinks I will do. (stupid question right? it can only be answered when the trophies are presented and any guessing before then will serve pointless.) He said that in the last local show, a girl who is a model and competitor and probably the BEST in show that year didn’t even make it in top 5…meaning, it ALL comes down to the judges personal taste. My immediate thoughts were to worry/cry/over analyze/throwup/eat/run away. Those of you who have been reading my blog since the beginning know that I have spent the past year breaking free of intense insecurity, the idea that ‘hoping someone/s will like me’ and not judged purely off abs, ass, hair, skin, symmetry etc is what all of my training is coming down to leaves me feeling like this-   


What if I lose? What will I do then?

Well. First thing I’ll do is eat my burrito that I deserved no matter what, and then go to In and Out once I’m hungry again. (don’t forget the boba chai for dessert.)

Then, I thank God for giving me the desire to push myself. To do something that I always told myself I couldn’t do…and do my best at it.  Thank my parents for being examples of health in all ways spiritual, physical and mental. Hug my mom for losing all her weight all by herself without some bullshit pill or biggest loser, and for keeping with her strength even when people hate on her out of fear for what they don’t understand. Then go sit and read and talk with my little brother because he is my light. Then eat with D. WITH D. Laugh with him. Thank him for being a man. The first man I’ve dated who has a determination and drive that is matched my none other than my own Daddy 🙂

Somewhere in there I will figure out when the next time I can afford to  compete will be. I. WILL. GO. PRO.

Now enough of that. Let’s show the judges what we’re made of, what we went through to get here, and hopefully the passion in my stance will blow them all away. 🙂

I will be up at 4 am. By 11am tomorrow morning, I will be on stage. By 8pm, we will receive the results! I’m very very excited. I’m very very VERY blessed.

I managed to sit up long enough to snap a few photos. No makeup needed:

this face he did made me laugh. he’s just eating pretzels like a muthafka